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11.26.2004
you might think i.m happy
but i.m not gonna be ooh kay.
sorry. back ta friday.
i really dont remember friday. saturday. sunday.
so moving to monday.
went ta school. all scrubbed out.
teusday.
went ta school again all scrubbed out.
its what i.m good at.
went to chile.s with barber, errrika, samip, and ricky.
we visited jason.
he is so cool.
went to hollywood video. got a movie.
came to my house to watch it.
i didn't feel good so i went upstairs to TRY and sleep.
not a success.
they were all being to loud.
talked to kevin for awhile.
went to sleep.
wednesday.
hell yeah no school.
slept in.
kinda.went to the mall with kevin, steev, amber, doogal, michelle, roonie, joe, and meatball.
uh i hate him.
he was annoying me.
like always.
but more then the norm.
b.c i didn.t feel good.
he threw doogal.s pizza on the ground.
dick.
i got a moolatte.
mmm.
i don't drink the bottoms so when we left...
i threw it on his car.
he was pissed.
good.
he deserves it.
i.m the wrong bitch to fuck with.
ditched him and joe.
went to kevin.s with amber, steev, and roonie.
went to walmart.
kevin and roonie left me there.
fuckers.
me, steev, and amber left and went back to kevin.s.
thursday.
happy thanksgiving.
ate here.
kevin came and picked me up.
went to his aunts hosue in struthers.
then to his grandma.s house in transferr, pa.
he almost hit 2 deers.
yes deers.
not deer.
went back to his house.
steev, amber, and roonie came over.
went to sheetz.
mmm.
cappichino.
went to boerio.s
that fucking italian delieght [ not so delieghtful ] was there.
of course he started shit.
i.ll kill his meatball/fat ass.
went back to kevin.s.
his window was being gay.
long story short -
he got pissed.
threw his helmet at his car.
shattered the back windshield.
threw his bike in the tree.
what a night.
came back to my hosue till 2:45ish.
friday.
[today.]
nothing really so far.
woke up.
ate.
turkey.
mm.
salad.
mm.
took a bubble bath.
so relaxing.
now here i am.
eating soup.
mm.
i.m a lardass.
and updating.
good bye my lovers.
i'm for sale bitches.
-xo.xo.xo-
-a.to.the.d-
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Posted at 02:50 pm by AtotheD
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11.18.2004
looking in the car's rear view mirror
your more beautiful then ever
so far so good on keeping up = ) but its only been 2 days. like every other day - got up, got ready for school, went to school, sent text messages outta my ass. bombed my bio quiz. oh well. i dont need bio anyways. came home. ate steak got in the shower. just got out. i have an eye appointment at 6. yay. new glasses - its about time. and new contacts - because mine turned into plaster thanks to morton, meatball, and kevin. but don't worry. you don't fuck with this bitch. i'm crazy. its on this weekend. saturday meatball and morton better watch out cause we're comin for 'em. this weekend will be pimp shit. tracii's sister is letting her take her car for 50 dolla and tracii don't even have her permit yet. hah. can't wait for that. the oc is on tonight. it will be my first time watching it. see'n what all the hype is about. i feel bestfriendless these days. travey was my best friend but he got a girlfriend now and we talk like once every 2 weeks = ( . eh, its my fault to. cause ofthe fight we got into and i told him not to call me or talk to me and not to bother to ask for help anymore. then he got a girlfriend. maybe he just needs someone to comfort him cause i'm too hard on him. but he needs someone to be hard on him. hes easily influenced. or maybe he really does like.love.loke her. who knos. i sure don't. but i must be going to get ready for my eye appoint ment.
i'm for sale bitches.
-xo.xo.xo-
-a.to.the.d-
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
I know that you are something special
To you I'd be always faithful
I want to be what you always needed
Then I hope you'll see the heart in me
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Your beautiful soul, yeah
You might need time to think it over
But im just fine moving forward
I'll ease your mind
If you give me the chance
I will never make you cry c`mon lets try
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Am I crazy for wanting you
Baby do you think you could want me too
I don't wanna waste your time
Do you see things the way I do
I just wanna know if you feel it too
There is nothing left to hide
I don't want another pretty face
I don't want just anyone to hold
I don't want my love to go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
You're the one I wanna chase
You're the one I wanna hold
I wont let another minute go to waste
I want you and your beautiful soul
Your beautiful soul, yeah
how cute. i wish a boy felt that way about me.
Posted at 04:25 pm by AtotheD
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11.17.2004
i.ll put you on like a diamond
so i can *sparkle* and be the envy of my friends
so yea its been pretty much forever since i've updated. well nothing has happened to update about. and its pointless for who ever reads this to read the same thing over and over again. only thing really worth telling about would probably have to be about 3 weeks ago my brother shot me in the face. fat lip. broken tooth. still gotta get that fixed. thanksgiving is almost here. 8 days. and then come SamiP's and Corry's birthday. Corry's moving to Florida on the 24th so he won't be here but SP will be 18 on the 30th. x/3. Then comes christmas shortly after that. stress. stress. and more stress. what to get everybody. where to get the money. thank god for the accident. otherwise id be pennyless for christmas shopping. i have nothing to update about. but before i fell asleep today when i got home i was watching tv and got to thinking. i always say how i wanna quit school and how i can't wait to graduate and get out of this place. just a little farther away. like kent maybe? but i don't want to grow up. and i don't want to move away and leave my friends. but there won't be many friends/people here i'm leaving. only a few. almost all of my friends ar seniors this year. goodbye to you. i'll miss you. and those that aren't seniors will be next year leaving me as the lonely junior. yea i have a few friends that are freshman now. but nothing like what i'll be losing in the next 2 years. but hey thats life. nothing you can do. but i really have nothing to say/write about. plus i'm swamped with papers and projects, and homework. so i better get to it. i'll try to keep up.
i.m for sale. x3
-a.to.the.d-
Posted at 08:20 pm by AtotheD
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10.17.2004
its time for an overlook of the weekend.
so friday. ricky and samip came to pick me up. we went to the game cuse we wanted to see who got homecoming queen and king. met up with amber and amanda.watched the homecoming court and crowning of king and queen. not the people we wanted to win but hey what can ya do? we left before the actual game even started because it was freezing and raining. went to steves house to meet up with him and kevin cause doogle lost his keys. we all went to rockney's but they were packed so we went next door to BK. we were loud of course cause we let amber drink an energy drink. never again. then we came back to austintown and went to walmart. we got kicked out for being to loud/crazy whatever. what a good time. then me kevin and steve went to hollywood video and rented Texas Chainsaw Masacure which was pretty much gay. Went back to kevins and SamiP, Amber, Amanda, and Ricky came over. They took amanda home then came back cause SP forgot her purse and then her and Ricky took me in the focus and told me something that shall remain in the focus. then they left again. we finished watching the movie and kevin brought me home around 12:30ish i do believe. saturday. hectic day. homecoming. woke up at 8:30 hitting the snooze until 9:20 when i got out of bed and rushed to Penny.s for my hair appointment. got my hair done. went to burger king. came home. ate. did a lot of nothing. started geometry homework then quit cause i don't kno what we're doing. blah blah blah. got ready for homecoming. liz, samip, jessi, and erika came over. took some pictures. kevin, amanda, and doogle came over. took some more pictures. left. went to doogles real quick. then to kristie's. then to ricky's to get our pictures done. then to roonies and steves. then finally the dance. had a great time. took lots of pictures. went to B&O after the dance with a bunch of kids. had fun there. danced a bit more. my top was pretty much off like a bizillion times = ) then came home at like 12:40 to change and Kevin picked me up around 1 to go back to his house till 2:30. came home probably closer to 2:50 but hey whats 20 minutes late? talked to him on the phone till like 3:25. went to sleep. today/sunday. kevin called my house at 2:30 and my mom woke me up. he came over then we went to take the caddy back to salem and pick up the neon. then to his brothers help so kevin could help his brother move some stuff cause they just moved in like 2 weeks ago. then we went to giant eagle to get pumpkin pie and cool whip. back to my hosue for a little while. he left at like 7 to go to section 8. i showered. ate. did some homework. dried my hair. did some more homework. and got online. it was such a great weekend. i don't think it could have gotten any beter <3 = )
duce up - a town down
-x.o.x.o.-
-amanda.
"..OoooohhaaaahhhhhOhhhaaaahhhh...
Can somebody explain to me
Why everybody is trying to be
Living like a celebrity
Doing what they see on MTV.
Ice is cool but I am looking for more, simple things is what my heart beats for.
Cause that's me
I don't ask for much
Baby
Having you is enough
You ain't got to buy nothing
It's not what I want
Baby it's You
We don't have to go nowhere
Its not what I want
Baby it's you
It's not for what you got
Cause I know you got alot
No matter what you do
You always gettin Hot
It's You,
It's You
Baby all I want is You Yeah
It don't matter that your car is fly
And your rims are spinning on the side and
It don't matter where we go tonight
Cause if I'm with you I'll be alright.
That's cool but I'm lookin for more
Its your love that my heart beats for.
Cause thats me
Don't have to spend a dime
Baby
I just want your time.
You ain't got to buy nothing
It's not what I want
Baby it's You
We don't have to go nowhere
Its not what I want
Baby it's you
It's not for what you got
Cause I know you got alot
No matter what you do
You always gettin Hot
It's You,
It's You
Baby all I want is You Yeah
Ooooohhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh
Oooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh...
You ain't got to buy nothing
It's not what I want
Baby it's You
We don't have to go nowhere
Its not what I want
Baby it's you
It's not for what you got
Cause I know you got alot
No matter what you do
You always gettin Hot
It's You,
It's You
Baby all I want is You Yeah
Yeah Yeah Yeaey Yeahey Ye Ye Yeay..."
Posted at 11:42 pm by AtotheD
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10.10.2004
ripping apart the insides.
ok so i haven't updated in a while. and i won't bother updating on the school week cause its the same ol' same ol' everyday. wake up. get ready. go to school. do that learn thing. leave school. go tanning. come home. do homework. get online. watch TV. get online. shower. get online. talk to kevin till 12 or 1ish. go to sleep. and the cycle starts over. so anyways. thursday was our last day. hell yea 3 day weekend. thursday night.. amber and michelle came over to get ready. went to kevin's for a little party. watched finding nemo then everyone came over. well the rest of the people for the party that weren't already there. la la la. had a fire. kids got drunk. and high. like every other time i go to a party. luke was real messed up. and he'd lean over and smell my hair and tell me it smelled good about every 2 minutes. then kevin and morton did it the first time luke did. lots of stuff happened. don't need to go into detail on that tho. i tried to go adventuring in the woods with amber but she got scurred and wanted to go back so i walked her back and then i ventured out on my own and i saw this animal and thought it was like a skunk or something and ran back and like rolled my ankle 3 times. so yea.. i was supossed to be home at 1230. but at 1230 brian had to follow dustin and casey home cause they were high and he had to stop at denny s for like 10 minutes for dustin to sell weed to some girl. so brian got back at like 120 and i was like ok guys i.m out. bye. and luke was like can i have a hug and i was like sure. and he was laying on the ground and hes like your just gonna have to bend down cause i.m not getting up and i was like ok and i bent down to give him a hug and he like pulled me on top of him. and i was like what the hell i have to go bye guys. and i got home at 130 and me and brian got in lots of trouble. but yea i.ll just leave it at that cause a lot happened that night. friday night.. samip and jessi came over. talked about how they are going to kent for school. mom told sp shes not allowed. then we dropped me pictures off to get developed. went to burger king to get a bite to eat. came home. then kevin and them came to pick me up. and .. well me, kevin, amber, amanda, steve, and zah were supossed to met dougal, michelle, stifller, and roonie || my best friend || at the 'scaregrounds' but that never happened. see we went a diff. way to get there and of course they believe me and my great sense of direction with the help of steve and we ended up in columbiana county and just went to tour where kevin worked. then we just went back to steves. kevin was pissed at the world and would talk to me and steve. he wanted to kill himself. steves mom was somewhat worried. yet me and steve continued to be assholes. cause i'm president of the club and steve is vice. la la la. kevin hated us. amber and amanda were scared of him. a bunch of stuff went down. la la la. came home around 12-1230. saturday night.. picked up my pictures. amber came over. got ready. kevin picked us up. went to kevins with amber, roonie, and steve. then to the movies to see shark tale. cause its like finding nemo. made fun of kevin a lot. listened to my oldies CD. so good. so good. drove roonie nuts. took him home. drove around. went to steves. took amber home. went back to steves to get my purse. then i came home. sunday.. did a lot of nothing all day. kevin came over to bring me my shirt that i left in his car. he stayed her till like 11. brian came home. we went to pick up a pizza and take amber her cell phone which she left at my house. came back here. we all were being gay and messed around. i kicked kevin's ass of course. and yeah. it was a funny night. and here i am. done updating on this weekend.
duce up - a town down
-x.o.x.o.-
-amanda.
"..I saw my boyfriend hanging with this girl that I hate
He didn't have to tell why last night he was late
I can't believe what you tell me
Your lies have come undone
Now I'm living on the run looking out for number one
I took a ride to the city
Had to get out of this place
I just can't stand the pity
When the tears fall down my face
I used to think it was over
But its only just begun
Now I'm living on the run looking out for number one
One day you'll see me but only when your dreaming
One day you'll say I was the one
I used to ride on a Greyhound stashed away on a train
But I take for the subway
That's were the goods are in the rain
I wanna follow the rivers to an island in the sun
Now I'm living on the run looking out for number one
One day you'll see me but only when your dreaming
One day you'll say I was the one
Late at night trying to fight
I just might think about him
Right now I'm feeling fine
I'm better off without him ya!
One day you'll see me but only when your dreaming
One day you'll say I was the one
I know that on day you'll see me
I'll haunt you when your dreaming
One day you'll say I was the one
I'm number one.."
Posted at 11:44 pm by AtotheD
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10.4.2004
Tracii Jane Long...
Git R' Done!!!
ok.. yea so i kno i wasn't gonna update for awhile but i'm really bored today and have nothing better to do.. but don't be expecting constant updates = ) || saturday || continuing from where I left off in the last entry. that night me, kevin, steve, amber, amanda, stiffler, ronnie, michelle, and dougal went to the haunted house [ Ghoul Mansion ] out in Sharon PA. so yea thats like a 40 minute drive tops. but ohh no. not with dougal leading us. It took us like 2 hours to get there. Stopping 3,647,534,459 times at every single gas station in sight in PA. Also 2 Mcdonald's. Thank God for gas stations. So you kno we finally got there. It was almost worth that whole 8 dollas. Maybe worth 7.50 of it. lol. Nah. I expected it to be really scary.. and uhh it wasn't. "Wanna see pumpkin?" How original. so yea. After we got lost on the way home [ went thru sharpsville, loops, down the same streets.. you name it we did it ]. Oh yea. before i forget when we were in sharpsville we drove down this one way street in the middle of about 6 houses. and i look to my right and at 10:22 at night there was a guy in his backyard riding around in a backhoe or whatever. Now that was fucking weird. Nonetheless verry amuzing. Anyways. Me, Kevin, Steve, and Ronnie realized once again we were going the wrong way so we turned around and left Dougal, Stiffler, Michelle, Amber, and Amanda in PA. Our solution = always go straight! so that we did. we found our way back and when we got back t hubbard we stopped at the gas station and talked to Flloyd and some other kid [ I wanna say his name was Chad but i'm not sure ] for a little while. then to BK. After that dougal and them found their way back to Ohio. And he took Michelle, amber, and Amanda home. The rest of us went to Kevin's. Watched SNL. It was funny shit. They were making fun of the debate. Ronnie jumped off the roof and like broke his ass or something. Which I thought was funny. Kevin brought me home at 12:30ish. Then he called me around 2 and we talked until like 4 or 4:30. They went to wal*mart at 2:30 in the morning = weird.. and around 4 they drove past my house for the hell of it. What a night. || sunday || hmm. did a lot of nothing. got in a big fight with travis. as of now. we are no longer friends. so yeah, i'm best friendless. what a way to be. then later that night me and samip went to ricky's to visit him, samr., and ed. them are crazy kids. came home around 9-9:30ish. did some more of nothing. don't remember the rest of the night. talked to kevin till 1ish. || monday/today || woke up. got ready. sorta. went to school. had a test. left school. went to arby.s. and the bank. came home. did my project. some of it. decided that i need to talk to travis. and we are gonna have to do it in person outside of school. no phone or computer shit anymore. we'll have to go to the park or somewhere where we can sit down and talk to each other and maybe seeing each others emotions not a computer screen that is an attempt at them will help things out. of course someone else will need to be there. well 2 other people. one to keep the other one entertained. and they just need to be within the distance so they could see us and make sure we don't end up beating the shit outta each other and killing each other. so yes. i'll have to tall him that sometime. to bad it seems like he avoids me in school and doesn't get online. and i can't call him or anything. hmph. anyways. after i did that stuff i got a steaming hot bath. then a shower. i needed the bath to relax from all the stress. then i went to hollywood video with brother. we saw kevin driving on our way there. and there were these 2 movies [ Demon Child 666 and Looking thru Your Eyes or something like that ] That I am so going to rent! It'll be a good time. Came home. Ate. Watched Degrassi <3. Re-Wet my hair. Blow dried it. now i'm sitting online and watching Plain Truth on lifetime. I love lifetime movies. It's been so long since I've watched on. I'll have to get back in to the routine of watching them. But until next time.
duce up - a town down
-x.o.x.o.-
-amanda.
Posted at 09:56 pm by AtotheD
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10.2.2004
Now there's no beauty in bleeding mascara...
...her lips are quivering like a withering rose
so i.ve been neglecting the blog once again. not a big deal tho cause nothing exciting ever happens anymore. but from where i left off last time... ||.wednesday.|| the daily ritual. woke up. got ready. went to school. left school. went tanning. came home. did homework. sat online. watched tv?. got a shower. dried my hair. and probably talked to kevin on the phone till 12-1ish. ||.thursday.|| got up. got ready. went to school. took a couple tests. like 3 i think. it was my last day of free text messaging. what a depressing day. left school. went tanning. came home. did homework. got online. showered. dried my hair. got bakc online. i believe i talked to kevin until 12ish that night. went to bed. ||.friday.|| woke up. got ready. went to school. took some more tests. it was a depressing day. no longer aloud to text message during school or ever. = ( . took a few more tests. went tanning after school. then had to go with katie to get her hair cut. got arby's. came home. got online. got a shower. blow dried my hair. got ready for the game. Kevin picked me up around 7:30. went to the game. we won. 14-6. now were 6-0. go fitch. it was the first time i.ve ever seen zach morse in jeans. so i took a picture of him. = ) lol. what can i say.. it was an exciting moment in life. talked to my favorite freshman micheal baker, and stiffler, and steve morse, and amber, and michelle, and dougal, and my favorite 7th grader Ronnie. i love those kids. talked to a few other of my favorite freshamns || ex. Victoria Lucente, Tracii Long, and Donald Orengia. || Talked to donny about the 'abnormalties' of me and Kevin. And of course my BFF Travey was there. Mmmmm... he smelled soo good.. it was irresistable lol. boy i'm a dork. but anyways after the game. kevin dropped vicky off at traciis cause tracii got mad and left early--loong story--then we went back to his house and watched like and hour of 'Lilo & Stitch'. went to 5th quarter at 11:30. talked to Stiffler. i love that kid. left. he brought me home around 12:10ish maybe. dad was drunk and i didn't wanna put up with it so i didn't bother getting online. i went straight upstairs with the bottle of nyquil and a bottle of water. i was kinda tried as is was so i drank a lil water and didn't end up finishing the bottle of myquil as planned. which i guess is a good thing. it was to dark and i was to tired to be able to open the bottle. fell asleep. ||.today.|| woke up today around 1. bottle of nyquil still laying next to me. i hid it in this little thing in my room incase i ever feel the need to use it again. smart little amanda. then i watched the movie 'freaky friday'. i love that movie. lol. then i sat online. and i'm still sitting online figuring out plans for tonight. i'm getting a shower shortly and i'll try o update again tonight. it should be a good time. byee.
duce up - a town down
-x.o.x.o.-
-amanda.
Posted at 04:20 pm by AtotheD
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9.28.2004
you treat life like a picture
...butitsnotamomentfrozenintime...
well lets see. last night i talked to kevin till about 1:30 i think. maybe 1ish. don't remeber. went to bed. woke up at 6:20. got ready. went to school. did all that good learning stuff. came home. fell asleep on the couch till 6:30 when errrika called me. errrika, jessi, and kevin came to pick me up around 7ish.. a little after. damn jessi came to the door and i thought she was gonna break it down cause she wanted to call shot gun. then she was in my house dancing to lean back as i was putting an away message on.. and my dad came inside from the back and she got embarassed cause she thought he saw her || which later we decided he didn't|| cause he already thinks shes weird according to her. Then to pick up ricky. Off to best buy. I bought the new Rascal Flatts CD 'Feels Like Today' <333 Its soo good. I love it. And ricky bought the Letigra CD. Well its something like that. I'm not sure if thats exactly how its spelled. left. dropped off ricky and jessi off at rickys then errrika brought me home. burned the rascal flatts CD for kevin. did homework. got a shower. burned the rascal flatts CD for errrika. blow dried my hair. did more homework. worked on my geography project. and here i am. siting online. like every other day of my life. good night.
duce up - a town down
-x.o.x.o.-
-amanda.
Posted at 11:50 pm by AtotheD
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9.27.2004
You had A girlfriend That looked Like a Boiifriend
so yea. last night. talked to kevin. fell asleep on the phone around.. 1:30ish. took the nyquil to early. maybe i won't take it as early tonight. so then i woke up at 6:20. read the text message kevon sent me last night. thats when i figured i fell asleep on the phone cause i didn't remember reading the text message or saying goodnight which is the normal nightly ritual. then i got ready for school. went to school. tired as hell. felt like shit. i thought i was gonna puke and pass out in 1* so mr. trafficante let me go to the bathroom to wet my face and the back of my neck. what a nice guy. continued on with the day as i normally would only feeling like shit. came home. did geometry homework. fell asleep on the couch. woke up to my mom telling me SamiP was on the phone. i watched part of road rules which was on when i woke up. and it just happened to be the episode and the part where the one hawthorne heights song is being played in the backround <333 then SamiP came and picked me up. off to jessi.s. jessi gave me these things for my room. don't kno what to call them. yay decorations <3 then we went to walmart. they did a bit of "shopping" we looked at halloween costumes. We're thinking I'm gonna get in a little girls BRATZ costume. don't kno for sure yet tho. came home. gave SP AA batteries. did health homework. and here i am online. i feel like shit and good night.
duce up - a town down
-x.o.x.o.-
-amanda.
"...You wanna know more, more, more about me
I.m the girl who.s kickin' the coke machine
I.m the one that.s honkin' at you cause I left late again
Hey, Hey, Hey
Can.t you see i want you
By the way i push you away
Yeah, don.t judge me tomorrow by the way i.m actin' today
Mix the words up with the actions
Do it all for your reaction, yeah
Hey, hey, get tangled up in me
You wanna know more, more, more, about me
Gotta know reverse psychology
I.m the reason why you can.t get to sleep
I.m the girl you never get just quite what you see
Hey, Hey, Hey
Can.t you see i want you
By the way i push you away
Yeah, don.t judge me tomorrow by the way i.m actin' today
Mix the words up with the actions
Do it all for your reaction, yeah
Hey, hey, get tangled up in me
You think that you know me
(Tangled up in)
You think that i.m only
(Tangled up in me)
When everything i do is only to get tangled up in you
You wanna know more, more, more, about me
I.m the girl that.s sweepin' you off your feet
Hey, Hey, Hey
Can.t you see i want you
By the way i push you away
Yeah, don.t judge me tomorrow by the way i.m actin' today
Mix the words up with the actions
Do it all for your reaction, yeah
Hey, hey, get tangled up in me.."
wow. it.s crazy. its been 6 months today that Anthony, Amanda, and Isiah passed away. it seems so long ago that it happened. and look how quickly people adjusted back to their normal lifestyles. i wonder if people who were in their classes look at that empty desk everyday and think about them and how horrible what happened to them happened.. or if they just blow it off and don't even think about it and remember it.
A.C. - A.F. - I.T.
3.27
Forever loved & never forgotten..
by anyone.
Posted at 10:25 pm by AtotheD
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9.26.2004
faint white fingers paint my sleep
please don't tell my secrets keep them hidden
well lets see. last night i stayed up until about 5:00ish talking to kevin on the phone. went to bed around 5:30 - 6ish. woke up at 2. got online. helped mom out a bit. cleaned the upstairs. got a shower to wash the shit out of my hair from sadies the night before. got online. ate. kevin, steve morse, and fucking dave came over to get something from brian. how do people i hate end up in my house?? beats me. went to the hospital with mom to see grandma. she should be getting out soon. a week or so hopefully. its kinda starting to creep me out how well i kno my way around the hospital. oh and when we got there there was this person standing in the lobby wearing a shirt that said "its a black thing" and i almost lot it. i thought it was the funniest thing i've ever seen. so yea.. around 6:45 we left and went to bub.s hosue || great grandma || visited them for a while. got home around 7:00. Ricky, SamR., and Jessi came to visit me. SamiP called Ricky the same time Baker called me and asked if we wanted to go to Denny.s at 8. So then we left to take SamR.s car home. Chilled at her house for a few minutes waiting for SP to pick us up. Jessi left us to do something with Timothy. Went to Denny.s. Left Denny.s and got home around 9ish?! "PUT MY CHERRIES BACK IN PLACE!!!!!" haha that was the funniest thing of the night SP. So when i got home I did about an hours worth of homework. Got my 2nd shower of the day. and now i'm online. good night.
duce up - a town down
-x.o.x.o.-
-amanda.
Posted at 11:16 pm by AtotheD
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summer is over we.re moviing on wiith the new school year Ohio Is For Lovers by: Hawthorne HeightsHey there I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all Where you are and how you feel Put these lights off as these wheels Keep rolling on and on |And on and on and on| Slow things down or speed them up You're running now for way too much |And on and on and on| How are you when I’m gone And I can't make it on my own |And I can't make it on my own| Because my heart is in Ohio So cut my wrists and black my eyes |Cut my wrists and black my eyes| So I can fall asleep tonight and die Because you kill me You know you do, you kill me well You like it too, and I can tell You never stop until my final breath is gone Spare me just three last words "I love you" is all she heard I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever Spare me just three last words "I love you" is all she heard I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever And I can't make it on my own |And I can't make it on my own| Because my heart is in Ohio So cut my wrists and black my eyes |Cut my wrists and black my eyes| So I can fall asleep tonight and die Because you kill me You know you do, you kill me well You like it too, and I can tell You never stop until my final breath is gone |You kill me well| So cut my wrists and black my eyes |you| |Kill| my final breath is gone |Me| so I can fall asleep tonight |well| And I can't make it on my own |And I can't make it on my own| Because my heart is in Ohio So cut my wrists and black my eyes |Cut my wrists and black my eyes| So I can fall asleep tonight and die Because you kill me you know you do, you kill me well You like it too, and I can tell You never stop until my final breath is gone |You kill me| this one is jor jessi
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